My fists were clenched and tears were on my face
As I told my dad most of my days are plagued with pain
He said "I've known about what you carry for a long time"
I can see it written in your eyes
Your smile is genuine, but is quickly fleeting when on your face
And if it helps at all son, I think about you every night when I pray"
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Not again
I've been doing my best
I've been bearing the load
But most nights get cold when I start feeling like I'm all alone
So if there's a purpose to this
At the end of the road
Grant me a strong back to shoulder it and find my way home
I don't know why my tears are falling
But I've been trying to be
Better than I have been
I'll seize this moment
I never want it
To end
I was only 4, happy, innocent then hurt,
By weaponized scare tactics used by the church
And although I've forgiven, I don't think Ill forget that one
Your push the fear while you claim it's all about love
At the end of the day, I know the change is on me
It's unfair to rely on someone else to fucking save me
So while I complain, I'll push forward confidently
Take a few deeps breaths,
And let go gracefully
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Not again
I don't know why my tears are falling
But I've been trying to be
Better than I have been
I'll seize this moment
I never want it
To end
