I Just Want to Feel Alright

I've been scratching notches in my journal Counting down the days till I feel better I had scary thoughts before October I've been wearing armor since like day one And my throats been tied in knots I've been in this war with my intrusive thoughts It's getting so old it neve stops It's hard to find the way home when you're lost I'm sick of fighting I just wanna feel alright So tired of trying all I ever do is try I'm getting nowhere I'm not ok And everyday more of the same I'm so sick of fighting I just wanna feel alright Feel alright Existential thoughts way too familiar I could really use a sign a purpose I been sending prayers to the ether But I don't think anybody heard them And my throats been tied in knots I've been in this war with my intrusive thoughts It's getting so old it neve stops It's hard to find the way home when you're lost I'm sick of fighting I just wanna feel alright So tired of trying all I ever do is try I'm getting nowhere I'm not ok And everyday more of the same I'm so sick of fighting I just wanna feel alright Feel alright