I Return Back To the Darkness

I am I am me Trama here Trama in my mind Trama in the sidelines Acid everywhere on the floor On the doors So much pain So much pain Devil is looking ways for those open doors Hit behind me the head kidnap me Ruin me I'm already ruined I'm already destroyed So what can do I try to be me I live as me That's good enough for me Let me say this I'm no God But I can attract people like Rod I'm hurting and lost constantly. I know I have mental issues I know I have alot issues Never going try convice I'm the victim I already own up who I am I rather Say sorry and move on I'm trying to do dirty work that no one is bold up enought to do I'll get more and more scars as I age Not physical but mental I feel for those who has already given up on I pray for you and you. I pray for someone that's suffering afront of me I don't need a ego boost to pray for you I don't need glory when I pray for you Just cause I said nothing Doesn't mean I didn't send the word It's already sent out to birds Some of you atheists are like most nerdiest people ever And most depressesd Everything black and white No color I can't look at another when say stuff that doesn't make sense Every touch every breath everything that I lost Mmhm Is with you when you when you live alone. I'm alone Dadada There's no happiness when I see empty stairs And I'm sitting here without you once again So, I, I, I pray Pray every night and day I, I, I pray Pray every night and day Lost so many homies to the drugs to the suicide The girls not being good enough I just don't want to lose anymore I only need me when I sleep I don't need you But doesn't mean I don't appreciate you Words hit hard to the heart Used to be heartbroken Cheat and sleep with those who I wouldn't give a hot damn about Was never into you I was so put down by previous relationships I just wanted to move on and start over again No one knowing who I am and what I did I became more depressed because the guilt ate me up I'd rather just be alone Atone myself in silence Don't try to bring my dirty work into the past Don't try to expose me because you're a hypocrite You're no saint you're just a touch of paint That says, attention seeker, all up your face