Just So I Could Be Defeated

While the phoenix said he was defeated I just slit my wrist All these voices keep repeating yet I still don't get the gist I'm depleted sick of this shit someday Just hope I don't get greedy Death is easy If y'all don't get the meaning just delete me Won't you plead Is what the reaper said I'm here to take your life I looked him in the eye Told 'em that I sold my soul the other night To be frank for nothing Just a bag of weed A bag of chips I'll die by fucking grieving All the way from hell Lay inside my cell Just so I could be defeated Just so I could Just so I could be defeated All the way from hell Lay inside my cell Just so I could be defeated Just so I could Just so I could be defeated I'm in trouble jumping into the frozen lake I'll be forgotten I ain't the chosen one I chose the one To take my life and dig me up a grave As I wallow in my sorrows not today Today is not the day I'll die just send me the fuck away Actually partially I may be the one to blame But fuck it Cold sweat on your flesh I see you're shaking Knees weak vomit and shit You keep me locked up and guessing This life ain't really a blessing I'll never find my peace Got a few cuts on my wrist and they still aching I'm trynna find a way that I could heal but I'm just wasting away All my life in abyss the sky has blackened I can't walk the plank like this the fuck just happened Well let Well let me fucking rest I'm sick n tired of being depressed I'll bury all of my enemies six feet underneath Then open up my chest So you can see it for yourself When the $carecrow lit the match That burned your world to fucking death That burned your world to fucking death, aye