The Letter

Stare at the paper Wait for the words to come out My thoughts go numb It's on the tip of my tongue I'm dreaming out loud I look at myself in the mirror Whisper the words "it's time" But the girl looking back at me lights a sad cigarette And just rolls them baby blue eyes Go on take a sip Get a grip Swallow your pride How long can I keep it together When secretly I'm buried alive I tear up your latest love letter And cast all my cares to the sea Make a wish like a penny And thank all the sweet things the good life once gave to me Baby, I finally know what to do Lately there are too many things I can't live up to I know that you've given me purpose And maybe that worked for a while At times you convinced me I'm worthless But who am I kidding With this lie that I'm living We should probably break up for a while There was a time I saw glitter and gold in the cracks Of sidewalks and potholes My dreams and my high hopes Yeah, I want them back But all that's left of these letters In a shoebox under my bed Yeah, I still smell your skin on my pillow And your pretty words that messed with my head Baby, I finally know what to do Lately there are too many things I can't live up to I know that you've given me purpose And maybe that worked for a while At times you convinced me I'm worthless But who am I kidding With this lie that I'm living We should probably break up for a while All these letters that you wrote to me With your big plans and sweet poetry So much more than just ink and stains on the page Only left me with one thing to say Baby, I finally know what to do Lately there are too many things I can't live up to I know that you've given me purpose I guess that was kinda your style At times you convinced me I'm worthless But who am I kidding With this lie that I'm living And where do I fit in These boxes I'm ticking We should probably break up for a while