is suicide too much?

She's in a cab, somewhere far away I'm in my room, day-drinking on a Tuesday It's such a drag and she don't wanna pick me up So, what? But it all goes downhill from here Got a pill in my pocket, watch it disappear I got too much on my mind And she don't wanna pick me up So, what? What? What? What? I tell you I'm fine but I'm lying I'll be outside, I'm on the ledge, know I'm dying On the inside I'll be fine, is suicide too much? My love I take it all to the face, catch the bus back home I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones And a spike on my boot, I can't wait too long for you my love My body keeps shaking and you know I can't take it, baby I don't wanna do this alone You said that you'd be back bеfore 11 Now it's 12-37 and you know that I've gotta get going home I know I don't lose my cool around you But I can't take lying, baby, that's all that you do You know I don't lose my cool around you But I can't take lying, baby, that's all that you do, do, do I tell you I'm fine but I'm lying I'll be outside, I'm on the ledge, know I'm dying On the inside I'll be fine, is suicide too much? My love I take it all to the face, catch the bus back home I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones And a spike on my boot, I can't wait too long for you my love I'm lying on a cold tile floor My head feels like it's gonna explode You need me but I need you more I'm lying on a cold tile floor My head feels like it's gonna explode You need me but I need you more I tell you I'm fine but I'm lying I'll be outside, I'm on the ledge, know I'm dying On the inside I'll be fine, is suicide too much? My love I take it all to the face, catch the bus back home I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones And a spike on my boot, I can't wait too long for you my love