Over & Over

Maybe if I push my luck I'll make it I know that's not a healthy thought But I can't help it The way the mind distorts Can be impressive I've often struggled with being selfish Not in the way you think, Not self preserving But Most times I put me first it makes me nervous Swear I've been trying Maybe I need some help I been praying, loving, crying, writing but nothings pushing the needle Coz I don't trust myself I often feel like a stranger Inside my own body All the these insecurities Been building homes inside people Coz I don't love myself And again over and over Here again over and over And again over and over Here again over and over Full grown I don't know what I Believe in anymore It is fate or is it God? Man I'm questioning it all for some reason Cuz I really want to Run away But I'm fighting versions of me And I can't trust that I see clearly Run away I'm treading water so deep And a mind that's so abrasive Swear I've been trying Maybe I need some help I been praying, loving, crying, writing But nothings pushing the needle Coz I don't trust myself I often feel like a stranger Inside my own body All the these insecurities Been building homes inside people Coz I don't love myself And again over and over Here again over and over And again over and over Here again over and over Maybe if I push my luck I'll make it