For You

For so long I've been giving myself a hard time And I've been Neglecting Every thing in my life Cause I'm too proud (Man, it makes me sick) (Man? it makes me) I wanna be Able to talk about What's going on When my head is in the dirt Instead I just Smile and say I'm fine To all the people that Give me their time I'm getting overwhelmed With this shit Oh man It's fucking tough (Yeah) For me to speak about You've done enough For me so far Just leave me alone Can't you see what it's doing to me? I'm getting choked up So take note I got it locked away In here I told you man I'm doing just fine on my own So step back For so long I've been giving myself a hard time And I've been Neglecting Every thing in my life Cause I'm too proud Of myself To speak up When I'm suffering Man it makes me sick Look at you Man it makes me sick To my guts Look what it's done to me I'm breaking down cause I need Someone to listen to me Fuck you You're what I wanna be I'm seeing people that are so much stronger than me How do you do it? Enjoying everything? It took a lot for me to leave the fucking house again So what I'm saying is I'm fucking struggling I just Need I just need I need help to get back the pieces I lost along the way I just need someone to tell me it's okay I'm still the same person I'm still the same person I just need to find him again I've started to break free, I've started to end My self suffocation is my only friend The path that I walked on Is showered in hope Cause I've carried this weight on my shoulders for so long And It's beginning to drag me down I let one bad day in my life Define who I am For a whole year I'd become what I'm not Cause I'm not what I think I've pushed you away But it's not my fault It's taken me too long to figure it out Cause I'm starting to find my way Out of the darkness Cast on me I told myself I just need to make it Through "One More Day"