Thankless Job

It's all light I tell myself again Like shit is all right These hard plights they regulate my pen Through all these off nights His eyes rolled right back to his head Shit ain't a soft sight Skin blue Hopin' he ain't dead We ain't startin' right The person I'm supposed to look for guidance Need my help first My only chance is relyin' on words Cause who the fuck gon' be there for me? Who the fuck gon' be there for me? Who the fuck gon' be there for me? Who the fuck gon' be there for me? Who the fuck gon' be there for me? I done made up many changes that I needed for myself Resolutions that exhausted me but did it for my health Put up walls to stay protected Bein real don't seem to sell Now I hustle day and night in hopes to never see a cell Doin crime all on my own cause on myself I couldn't tell Family man my intentions for the best I shouldn't fail But I'm preaching to the choir if I think I'm by myself Stories I got be the same as niggas crashin' out for wealth But who else got me? When you cry all day about not bein up It doesn't work When you glue yourself to pain and say you stuck It only hurts Try to be a better nigga everyday to clean the dirt A step forward seem to make me go reverse I never learn I'm tryna pick up pieces broken from my youth To help with mine Tryna feed the kid I got and still the one I got inside Make 'em proud But the biggest flaw I visit is my pride A real nigga always been a thankless job World told me I was angry Therapy at 15 I got labeled way too early Luckily my big head, had big dreams I ain't let nobody tell me who to be And even though a nigga tear up in the mirror I'd be weak to let 'em see Cause every week we gotta eat And every fuck up I repeat I gotta treat And I get through it don't believe in no retreats And every day a nigga starve Is so the people round me get to eat the carbs A real man a thankless job Who the fuck gon' be there for me? Who the fuck gon' be there for me? It's all good cause I like it that way Who the fuck gon' be there for me? I get it on my own nigga Who the fuck gon' be there for me? Who the fuck gon' be there for me? Word up That's why I do what what I do my nigga You gotta do what you do This not a record for complainin' This a record This a record to just keep goin hard you heard Word up You a man nigga Shit been tough on men For years before we was born you heard? Just go hard you heard Word up We get more time to lose Less time to eat The more times we fall down Help to better the feet When you take care of who close It'll lessen defeat But the lesson about it all Every blessing ain't cheap Ain't nothin free Amen