Unsightly

Two months, I can't write nothing at all Gave up on havin' someone to call Fake blood still left a stain on the wall Fake love still left a hole in my heart Stuck in the middle I wait for it to eat me alive It stings a little, it kills me when you treat me so nice Go grab the sickle, I'll let you cut as much as you like (As you like, as you like) I don't wanna be selfish But God, I hate myself And I can't help it You made me lose my mind I wish you felt it And I can't even cry The things I dealt with (I dealt with) I dealt with Leavin' you behind me Hope you like your side piece I look so unsightly That's why I'm always hiding I don't think they like me Most times, it don't surprise me Think about it nightly Keep damaging my psyche Lately, I don't even give a fuck 'bout the music It's just enough that I do it One day, I might lose it Don't have enough to get through it Like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go Spill blood, wake up on the floor We're done, but I hate you more He don't ever wanna wait one second So dumb, should've learned my lesson Those words he said, he meant it But I'm stuck on the way he said it So soft, so soft And after everything I gave you You're still gone Still gone I don't wanna be selfish (I don't wanna be selfish no more) But God, I hate myself And I can't help it (can't help it) You made me lose my mind I wish you felt it (you felt it) And I can't even cry The things I dealt with (I dealt with) I dealt with Leavin' you behind me (behind) Hope you like your side piece I look so unsightly That's why I'm always hiding I don't think they like me Most times, it don't surprise me Think about it nightly Keep damaging my psyche I hate myself Like nobody else And I hate you Much more than you do Forgive me, God No matter the cost I can't stop No, I can't stop