Demos After Dark (feat. Bobbycrush)

Too busy living life, lost track of time Said I'd be right back, save my place in line Now I gotta face the facts, cause the blame is mine Yeah, the blame is mine Too focused on success, I can't settle down But my head is getting heavy, trying to hold the crown Feel like it's just me in this mad old town I walk daily past my previous homes Ten years of all this dust can add a sepia tone It was chocolate blunt wraps and Spinrilla I was busy learning bout the Wu and J Dilla I was a history student, I combed through it for takes On how to represent my values over samples and breaks Had to peek behind the curtain just to see if I want it And if I got it, I was certain I could honor the greats And now I know it's not a spotlight Used to think it was a hustle, but it's not quite Used to think that I was rushing for the fame and the set I don't wanna take a check unless the font right I got veterans on my speed dial, tend to my family in the meanwhile The thing about a garden, it only grows when the heat mild Let it all chill for a second, take a breath Life can pass you by while you're placing bets Now it's nothing in the way I'ma hit the button till there's nothing left to say Looking like a glutton, always something on my plate I've been keeping busy, I've been keeping to my ways I'm on the beaches, I'm at the park I been up with Bobby mixing demos after dark Nodding to some birdsong, started as a lark Lately it's occurring that I'm meeting every mark Cause I'd rather be lonely than broke, that shit is no joke And a toke is the only time I'll tolerate all the smoke Trouble seeing through the haze, but double screens on all my plays Mapping me would take you days, need an app to find your ways Out, gifted with my mouth, I'm just chasing wealth While these kids are chasing clout But I'm the one without a spouse, still living at my parents' house Trapped by comfort like a mouse, I'm coming unbuttoned like a blouse You can't put a price on peace of mind But I'd like to see you try Popping tags with all my time Got me feeling like a mime Got me feeling like the Joker But if I started something I'ma see it till it's over I need closure, exposure And maybe more composure But I ain't slowing down, keep on marching like a soldier Cause you don't know what you got till it's gone And by then you're left wondering what you did wrong All the time in the day's never finding its way back I don't mind, it's okay, I'm forward-minded today Cause you don't know what you got till it's good And you never handle things the way that you should And then it's all over, and you never get disclosure It'll leave you feeling sober, baby, I already know 'Cause I'm done playing games Looking at my life, no shame Roses in my eyes, okay Everybody hides sometimes, I put it on the line in the page You don't know what you got till it ends And I didn't make the music to do it for no trend And I don't even mean to offend I'm just making moments with my friends now