Do I Let Her Know

Uh, she just told me, tell me how it goes I don't tell her, demons getting close Getting harder, fighting with my thoughts Do I leave it, do I let her know I been working when I go to sleep Paid in full, but yo, it's never cheap I been fighting, fighting with my thoughts Do I leave it, do I let her know Yo, like where we going? I say it's far She wanna trust it, but she's messing with a superstar You know it's crazy when her competition gotta know me And see them crushing on her man, is he gonna fold? Doing shows, but how this high life lives is lonely I used to know this, I'm sleeping later hours And hoping she'll never notice She's talking about her day and I'm struggling giving focus Ask about her opinion, she could be hating my opus I'm learning not to accept it, a couple things on my shoulders Know my ting is to walk, but I couldn't be like my olders I know I'm setting a path, it's a part of breaking the cycle Could be less of a man, but I put my word on the bible but Yeah, I know I know she's right Yo, she don't want the money, but she told me stay the night But if I stayed, then all my goals are fighting with my sleep She wanna trust it, but it's playing in her thoughts saying She just told me, tell me how it goes I don't tell her, demons getting close Getting harder fighting with my thoughts Do I leave it, do I let it, no I've been working when I go to sleep Paid in full, but yo, it's never cheap I've been fighting, fighting with my thoughts Do I leave it, do I let her know I know it's crazy when I shut her out from issues in my head We should be talking about it, but see I'm so unprepared Like what's the point in addressing issues I know she'll struggle to fix You'll say I'm being selfish, she's trying to be in the mix Cause she just wanna help, but me I've never seen it for myself Should be feeling these feelings, but put the feels on the shelf Cause I know the way that they play me, but me I'm trying to survive Know I write on my phone, but it's silent quarter to five And yes I know she's trying I wanna help, but see my problems only multiplying I see my people getting killed there's all these thoughts of dying Now I'm thinking if I leave, then how do I provide this poker on my face Just know it's burning in my thoughts for days I'm in my thoughts now If I never talk, then she think I wanna divorce now I don't wanna talk, so I make it harder to see me Said it's only trust, but this trust is never as easy as She just told me, tell me how it goes I don't tell her demons getting close Getting harder fighting with my thoughts Do I leave it, do I let her know