Survival Mode

I'm tired of living in survival mode Been through it all, I'm surviving though I just stay balanced through all my high and lows If we ain't breaking bread, what you invite me for? All the adversity I embrace All of the risks I had to take All this sinning but God giving me grace So how could you judge me for my mistakes? I don't compare my life to nobody's I'm good with the soul that's in my body I can never count the pockets of another man I can never feel envy of what another has Lately I been hearing way too many eulogies And lately I been spending way too much on jewelry Looking in the mirror like it's all on you and me So I'll be damned if I let my traumas ruin me Dark times, I see humanity unhinged Trust me, you won't find love on Hinge Roll up, smoke weed, then binge Plotting on the world and how I'm trynna live But how you want the world, you ain't ready for? How you want that girl, you ain't spending for it? And how you gon' succeed if you ain't planning for it? And how you want that crib and you ain't stacking for it? I'm tired of living in survival mode Been through it all, I'm surviving though I just stay balanced through all my high and lows If we ain't breaking bread what you invite me for? All the adversity I embrace All of the risks I had to take All this sinning but God giving me grace So how could you judge me for my mistakes? If you ain't perfect, how you trying to judge me? Down bad in the dark, that was once me No idea how to heal, that was once me I had to be the person to confront me Prepared for every opportunity, I took advantage No excuses, cause we all start with a disadvantage I moved like I was rich when I didn't have it Never got a test from above that I couldn't manage My purpose in life ain't to convince me I can only inspire that's word to Nip Roll a spliff and burn that bitch to a crisp I stay afloat with the knowledge that I equipped Ain't a better time than the time I get alone Ain't a better bitch than the one I got at home Ain't a better feeling than getting it on your own I just gotta use these lessons as a stepping stone I'm tired of living in survival mode Been through it all, I'm surviving though I just stay balanced through all my high and lows If we ain't breaking bread, what you invite me for? All the adversity I embrace All of the risks I had to take All this sinning, but God giving me grace So how could you judge me for my mistakes?