Cancer

As an adolescent I was very rebellious Always doing stupid stuff That were foolish and reckless See I would Drink and drive in my car all the time And I would Get so high till I was out of my mind But I was blind And couldn't see through the dark Didn't know I had a void Deep down in my heart So I kept on living wrong 'til one night I knew that there was something wrong I told my mom about it Then we went straight to the doctor They ran some tests And then this is what they said You have testicular cancer And it has really spread All the way up to your liver and lung And that was when my battle For my life had truly begun Although I didn't know it then But God was gonna use it as a wake up call Kinda like what God did way back in the day To thee apostle Paul I was a wretch, so filthy and disgusting And I confess, that I deserve this suffering I was lost and confused Did not know what I should do On the day they gave the news Unsure of what I would go through Did not know the outcome Deep inside I felt numb Do I hide, do I run? To death will I succumb? But I pray I want to be set free from this cancer Im praying out to You Lord for an answer Don't leave me here to die from this cancer Dear God I know You are the answer I was 17 years old When the doc gave me the news At that very moment I was so confused Doc said, you will need to have some surgeries And we need to do it fast cuz right now it's an emergency So we booked it up in Kansas City The surgeon showed me where he'd cut me open It wouldn't be pretty The pain I had after the procedure was immense The worse that I had ever felt The kind that made you wish That it would all just end Please just make this go away Morphine doesn't help the pain And I haven't slept for days But I overcame But then came the chemotherapy It just made me sick But it was the only remedy Fast forward about 3 months or so The chemo gave the cancer One last final blow Only by Gods grace That I made it to the end If it weren't for You I would've died in my sin Thank You Lord I was lost and confused Did not know what I should do On the day they gave the news Unsure of what I would go through Did not know the outcome Deep inside I felt numb Do I hide, do I run? To death will I succumb? But I pray! I want to be set free from this cancer Im praying out to You Lord for an answer Don't leave me here to die from this cancer Dear God I know You are the answer I want to be set free from this cancer I'm praying out to You Lord for an answer Don't leave me here to die from this cancer Dear God I know You are the answer