Sulk

I can't escape this feeling It's eating me alive as I stare at the ceiling I'm high again So I won't feel a thing My mind's beginning to decay And everyone keeps telling me that I'll be okay But this misery It's fucking killing me And it feels like I'm losing my mind Just wasting my time As I sulk around pretending that everything's fine Where is my silver lining? I've got to let go and try to leave this all behind me Guess I'm calling it quits Losing touch with reality I can't get a grip on anything I need stability This is all a facade I'll hide how I feel Pretend I'm someone I'm not For the sake of you Got nothing left to lose And it feels like I'm losing my mind Just wasting my time As I sulk around pretending that everything's fine Where is my silver lining? I've got to let go and try to leave this all behind me So lost inside my own head Sat in a parking lot at 3AM And tried to escape every word that you said I dwell on things I can't change Wishing that I could turn another page It feels like the world's crashing down on me I failed everything and everyone And the worst of it has yet to come I just hate myself too much to love anyone And yeah I may be young but I'm not naïve So I'll keep screaming my lungs out 'cause it's plain to see Things will never be the same And I've got no one but myself to blame And it feels like I'm losing my mind Just wasting my time As I sulk around pretending that everything's fine