Trying not to get my hopes up
'Cause I'm bound to get let down again
And lately I've been feeling so stuck
Wonder when I'll be the one who moves ahead
Anxiety gets the best of me
Between the pills and therapy I'm spent
I hope that I can find some clarity
Before I start to fall in this descent
So if you were to up and leave
I would understand
Wish I wasn't so afraid
Of making one little mistake I don't expect
My mind is rotted and decayed
From all the days that I spent in this disconnect
The life you see inside your screens
Is not the same behind the scenes
In fact
(I'm such a nervous wreck with nothing left but selfishness)
The way that I have been perceived is
Something that I'm starting to reject
(But it's starting to conquer me)
If you were to up and leave
I would understand
I'm not begging for sympathy
Just need you to know the kind of person that I am
We're drowning in the silence
There's no point to me confiding
As I watch you leave and make up an excuse
This conversation was one-sided
But I don't really mind it
As you walk away and fade out of view
Trying not to get my hopes up
'Cause I'm bound to get let down again
And lately I've been feeling so stuck
Wonder when I'll be the one who moves ahead
