goin' for the garbage plate (feat. Carpool)

Oh no not this again I'll ghost my therapist and all my friends Become a hermit on the weekend Feels like my shell is closing in Oh no here we go again Here we go again How is this my default? I only listen to the insults My lungs are choking on the asphalt I cant afford my adderall So while i'm riding this free fall Ignoring all my phone calls Gave up the alcohol So i count the cracks in my wall (every time i say i'm fine i realize i still kinda wanna die) I don't go to parties even when i'm invited I never know what to say I know things are changing I know that i'm changing So why does it feel the same? Oh no not this again I'll ghost my therapist and all my friends Become a hermit on the weekend Feels like my shell is closing in Oh no here we go again Here we go again I don't go to parties even when i'm invited I never know what to say I know things are changing I know that i'm changing So why does it feel the same? I can't go to shows without feeling so old I get dressed but don't leave the house The curtains are closed and i'm sleeping alone Lock me in and don't let me out (and i keep getting in my own way) Always in the corner like a recluse Feeling like a drug that you just abuse When life is nothing more than win or lose On and on So it goes Are the weekends just a waste of my time? Lie straight to your face when i'm asked if i'm fine Sit down take my meds and fall back in line Get it right I'll be just fine Oh no not this again I'll ghost my therapist and all my friends Become a hermit on the weekend Feels like my shell is closing in Oh shit not this again