I Was a Happy Kid Once

All my hope is dead I tried to see it all but all I see is red Fuck what I said My mind played tricks to prove me wrong Set me free Cause I am lost in the trenches Misery Cause this pain is endless And now I'm reaching out to you So who can come and can save me now Standing on the edge now Standing on the edge So who can drag me out Cause I'm standing on the edge now Standing on the edge Barrel to my head My finger cannot wait to pull the fucking trigger But I am holding back for now As I try to remember I was a happy kid once! With a heart of gold Now stare into the abyss It stares back to me with a glaze so cold Darkness has a claim on me A night in december When it made me bleed black I had to surrender Cause my life is a living hell And I'm looking down that fucking cliff right now Whish I could say something different But I see no way out Cause I'd die for something real But I cannot feel reality Make me feel Save me from myself! Take me Help me Save me Save me from Myself