Pain (feat. Durand the Rapper)

So much pain I pray yea i pray So i can have a better day Cuz im not doing okay Yea So much pain feels like ima suffocate My breaths fading away I pray so i can have a better day Im really not okay Why's it hard for me to concentrate Ever single day im thinking bout my own Mistakes Im running out in the rain cuz I'm feeling Drained I lost faith i wasn't proud cuz all i did was Complain So when you wake up with alot of regret Throughout the day you try to do your best to Not feel upset Like your last break up that you can't forget You be having flash backs and anxiety attacks When you go to bed I fell in a trap this is why i haven't slept But i wont collapse cuz this the only path that I've kept I've been sad cuz it feels like im the biggest Threat To everybody's heart soul and mindset I wish i can fly away You dont see the pain in me everyday You don't understand what im tryna say, im Tryna say I got so many problems on my plate All you ever see is a smile on my face I don't ever show it, I bottle my rage inside of My cage Yea I've been going through anxiety I probably gotta cut off lot of people i don't Need Like all this toxic air inside my lungs that i Won't breathe Yea honestly my problems keep on bottling Inside of me Yea now they got me talkin bout psychology And if you wasn't there for me I wont be there to respond to your apologies Me and you ain't got the same precise equality Ima be ahead to succeed at a high velocity Its the pain that can take away Your breath today and make you go insane I got alot on my plate this is why im awake Holding so much weight yea my body aches Dont lose yourself or your heart or faith I just wana escape all of my mistakes But i gotta change for my own sake So don't be afraid cuz everything's gonna be ok I got so many problems i don't know how to Start Too much is goin on in my brain my mind is Dark I feel like layin in bed all day i can't find the Heart When you ain't got nothin to look forward to Its kinda hard My mind state moves how it chooses Anxiety and all these panic attacks be so Ruthless Makin me feel like im useless my soul has Bruises Im really hurtin hope you don't think im makin Excuses Chest pains, sweaty palms and weak legs All these doctors keep tell me that i need meds I never listen to what he or she says Told em i ain't takin em i just want a clean head I don't wanna go through life walkin round like a zombie Slurred words people thinkin im speakin in Gondi Supposed to be the KING but im feeling like Bronny Wish i could take the pain away from drinkin Dasani I got so many issues i don't know what to do So hard to cope with everything that im goin Through This life is gettin to me i really want somethin New I feel like ima lose it if somethin dont happen Soon So many demons talkin to me when im at home They dont listen to me i tell em leave me alone Talkin to God does he hear me dont even know Lord if you hear me when i die protect my soul I wish i can fly away You dont see the pain in me everyday You don't understand what im tryna say, im Tryna say I got so many problems on my plate All you ever see is a smile on my face I don't ever show it, I bottle my rage inside of My cage