And the sound of my old voice. echoes through my brain. couldn't be convinced to calm down. and I have nowhere to go. and no one to talk to. my thoughts become my enemy. it might be years till I drink all my fears. and the way I feel right now. always contemplating. resistance is fading. always on the wrong side. like to run and hide. memories like movies. let me rewind my greatest days. it can't be true. that you've found someone new. and the way I feel right now. lost and lonely all these years. I haven't slept in days. you take all the shame. sorry I'm alive. promise I won't write
