Call Me Guilty

Mom, what's the matter, Jaz? He did it again, he hit me He did what? Calm down okay, calm down I'ma kill him Listen to me I'ma kill him, I know I'ma kill him, mama Listen to me, get your stuff and come home I can't come home, mama, I'ma kill him, I'ma do it I'm sitting contemplating Is it worth it, should I take it? Take that shot and change my life Get that glock and take his life Hospitals and bloody noses This would end all, I suppose That I could leave, knowing I can't leave So it's either him or me 'Cause he's gon' kill me if I stay, I know Gon' kill me, he can't change, I know From the first time that he did it Made a promise that he'd quit it Shit, it's gotten so much worse Don't wanna end up in a hearse I guess I gotta do it first Guess I gotta do it first I can't go back now, back now, I'm runnin' The red and blue, cops, I hear them comin' And if they catch me I still ain't sorry If that was wrong, just call me guilty 'Cause if you knew what he did to me I know I would get your sympathy So, if they catch me I still ain't sorry Just lock me up and call me guilty, guilty I did it, pulled the trigger It wasn't so hard, go figure Before I did it I said "This was for all the blood I shed" For all the women who've gone through this shit Can't think of what to do, this shit Then [Incomprehensible] Whose still tryna get out He's gon' kill you if you stay, I know I've been through this, so, yes, I know I know he promised that he'd quit it If you believe him, girl, forget it, shit You know I'm right Don't wanna see him take your life And it will only just get worse That's why I had to do it first I can't go back now, back now, I'm runnin' The red and blue, cops, I hear them comin' And if they catch me I still ain't sorry If that was wrong, just call me guilty 'Cause if you knew what he did to me I know I would get your sympathy So, if they catch me I still ain't sorry Just lock me up and call me guilty, guilty There's so much blood, I grab my stuff But before I could leave the cops busted in "You have the right to remain silent" No, I have the right to stay alive But guess what, I'd do it again He woulda killed me before I killed him It woulda been him up in this building It woulda been him fakin' tears But what's funny is that I'm the one standing here I can't go back now, back now, I'm runnin' The red and blue, cops, I hear them comin' And if they catch me I still ain't sorry If that was wrong, just call me guilty 'Cause if you knew what he did to me I know I would get your sympathy So, if they catch me I still ain't sorry Just lock me up and call me guilty, guilty