Awakenings

When we first met the well was dry A long, dark winter passed us by With shooting stars and hopeful hearts Our worlds collide And so we rushed to fill each other in Quick to feed our hungry hopes A feast of our affections we were born anew With open eyes we tried to make it work And for a while the magic took But cracks began to show As soon as things got hard Like paper walls our feelings tore We threw our backs against the door Unwilling to bear witness to the other side Oh, the games we play to hide The tangled dread inside The fear that we are going nowhere fast We point the finger out, the anger gets so loud It drowns out all the sorrow At least until tomorrow, what then? I took a good hard look at how I loved Years I squandered falling fast For any boy who'd have me was so insecure I'd lie awake alone at night Full of loathing, compromised And wondering how the hell did I end up like this Oh, the tears of rage I cried When nowhere could I find An answer that made any kind of sense to me I point the finger out, the anger gets so loud It drowns out all the sorrow At least until tomorrow Oh, I wanna learn, I wanna know Will our history crush us or can we let it go? I'm not the girl I was but what have I become? I'm not so willing anymore to bend Still pleasing and conceding But I'm not gonna lose myself again