First Seed

This one here I'ma dedicate to every chief on the streets Every abandoned seed And every broken home Just pop your chest out Hold your head up Stand strong through it all 'Cause no matter what A fathers love never dies If only you knew How much I do, do love you Oh, if only you knew How much I do Do need you My inconsistency as daddy keeps on plaguing my mind My alcoholic habits ruining my focus in life, turning me blind I struggle to keep reading the signs Responsibilities, I know son that I lack to apply Much apologies, let me wipe your tears from your eyes It's difficult to see you cry, son it's killing inside Tell your mama I never meant the drama, heard right Picking up the pieces after daddys lousy behind and I'm Well aware I leave no positive path I'm affected dearly by the aftermath of my past So I hope to God can never live the life of a man Who's travellin' between homes, Lone Ranger your dad, you see? I'm tryna make it in this industry my main drive is succeed to support my seed Exit life knowing deep down I've forfilled my deeds And make 'em proud of me before I'm diseased Love to my first seed If only you knew How much I do Do love you Oh, if only you knew How much I do Do need you I sympathise for my childs future Too many broke hopes and promises and people say your fathers a loser But they don't see how my heart breaks When all I vision is your face and dilemmas in the darkest places All alone with your dad gone And know I've wronged you it doesn't mean my love for my seed ain't strong I'd to struggle with continuous everyday drama With tryna cope with the stress from my childs mama I plan to be a man eventually provide you and advocate And supply you the balance together with the damages I've instilled in you through the years I know I disappeared especially it seems when you needed me near 'Cause me and mama we don't get along Our personalities collide I got tired at the time it was better off But I don't wanna let our personal issues come between us like I purposefully dissed you I miss you my first seed If only you knew How much I do Do love you Oh, if only you knew How much I do Do need you Yeah I understand it's difficult I know it Now it's got me answering for these seeds that I sowing Hoping that, when you open up your eyes you might notice my holding onto you is all I got left to keep me focused I'm feeling hopeless, overdosing on hard liquor is got me stressing Here tryna deal with all the pressures and lack of affection The alcohol is slowly killing me the copper's oppressing don't want you witnessing my adolescent is a depression 'cause it was hard but I still survived Overcoming the negativity my whole life Now my intentions are to change, rearrange my ways to benefit you when you off making the same mistakes Sometimes it takes a hard lesson just to learn Before I'm dead and gone I'm concerned how will life emerge for you? I failed as a role model Too many immoral affairs on the bottle some I'm hoping I'm out of there when I wake up it would all change Brighter days where we can play and no more pain In a place where you and I coinside without any complaints and no more struggles in this poor place Love to my first seed If only you knew How much I do Do love you Oh, if only you knew How much I do Do need you If only you knew How much I do Do love you Oh, if only you knew How much I do Do need you I know It's been months on end Since I last seen you But not a day goes by You don't cross my mind I have Still do And always will have nothing but love For my first seed You know Daddy loves you, man Ofa atu, son Ofa atu Yeah