I Let You Leave

I watched you leave from a bench in a park by the old hanging tree as a great wave would float to great open sea I watched you leave I stayed all day by that hollow tree and I cried till the sun went to sleep and I pictured your hair, your long dark hair and I wondered when we'd be free I stayed all day in the garden contemplating how lucky I was oh, to know the difference and what a burden it's become I let you leave on a plane to the west and I let you go with such ease and I let you think that you weren't the one to give me the strength that I need you steered away, it's all you could do like a ship casting off at first light leaving behind the ruin I am in the darkest of times what could I know, so sad and alone I suppose it's what I could do on my own go through life careful and cold on this solitary road and I miss you more than ever before and I wait for this to pass I'd take a knife to my heart if I could I pray that this can last so I pack a suitcase and say my goodbyes I explain I have somewhere to go for life has a way of throwing the signs and either we learn or we don't oh, it's easy to stay at a place that you know and challenge the world to fight no certainties, no promised land just think of what you might find I let you leave with a pain in my breath a pocket with nothing world would regret oh, I've never known anything quite like it and I watched you leave