My 1st Time

(Violent J) The first time, I didn't even feel guilty Never washed off, stayed bloody and filthy Just laid there next to the kid all night Kind of soaking it all in, and feeling alright I wasn't even old enough to drive yet, it was hell I had to put him on my handlebars and dump him down a well I try to feed off of that until I couldn't anymore By my sixteenth birthday, my total had grown to four. (Monoxide) I ain't afraid of you, but be afraid of me Cause when the lights go down, there ain't no stopping me Memories of my first real killing They found her all tied up, just hanging from the ceiling. What I was feeling was just so dark and twisted I couldn't believe I just did this. Now I'm stuck in my very own private Hell Will I ever do it again? Time will tell. (Chorus) My first time I was in control until the blood It was my first time The bloody mess I had to clean up It was my first time I know this ain't right It was my first time I finally took someone else's life (Shaggy 2 Dope) Every time I lay my ass down to sleep I pray to fuck these memories seize Bloody face and final breaths taken But the first, uh, what was I thinking? Just a piece of rope and a pair of hands I wasn't mad, but she kept talking man Suffocation, due to not breathing I choked her for the very first time for no reason. (Blaze Ya Dead Homie) It was eleven on my clock, I remember that much In the graveyard waiting for the dope man to show up Ten minuets pasts, and there's still no sign Just then off in the night, I see some headlights A car rolls by, driving slow and I don't know I thought it was my folk, I ain't pulled the .44 They stopped the ride, started blasting The fist time I didn't pull the heat Damn, this what happened (Chorus) My first time I was in control until the blood It was my first time The bloody mess I had to clean up It was my first time I know this ain't right It was my first time I finally took someone else's life (Madrox) First time my knife touched skin And the red blood started flowing so quick I just couldn't quit Kept stabbing until everything that I seen was red The pillow, the blankets, the walls, and even the bed One color dominating everything like contemporary art Am I the killer or artist with bloody heart? Then I curled into a ball in the corner of the room Feeling like a creep in the light of the moon. (Anybody Killa) If I took this gun and put a hole in your chest It won't compare to the first time I put someone to rest Kind of like a dream, but on a nightmare level Every time I think about it I can still hear the shovel Diggin' deep into the dirt to try to hide the pain Knowing I got away with something I'll regret in the end I really shouldn't have never done it But fuck it, I did him in The first person that I killed was my first best friend (Chorus) My first time I was in control until the blood It was my first time The bloody mess I had to clean up It was my first time I know this ain't right It was my first time I finally took someone else's life Someone else's life first Someone else's life