Growth

Aviator, yeah, this song is progress This whole feeing is growth to me In my 31st years I been running through the jungle- been Strapped to the back and had a nigga bout to crumble million times I remember replaying the grinds On a daily basis Moms and Pops was trying they best Hiding that stress, yet high as a jet It was me and myself, trying find me a set The rest of me, the best that I could hope to be Was just a little bit older than a young OG But then, phew, he was taken from me And I was broken Trying pull myself together back then I started smoking I was- holding myself in that moment a million times till it's over sometimes I replay At times I delay I hate to say it Hate to be the one made you leave it 'At's how I gets all lost when I'm trying to grieve, Shit But it can't hurt me no more Found the light- at the end of the tunnel Your boy gone - like I can't apologize for it My best friends, they look at me They tell me what they see, a different dream I try to find myself somewhere amongst the circles But I'm always in a square living my damn life It's a struggle just to get right It's not so natural for the kid I was an artist type I played all the games, listened to all the lames I trended hip-hop, tried out all the names All the different styles flipping through a million discs L.O.D., Black & Tan, City of Dreams seeing shit And that was life or death- followed by my Lions steps We can get it back within as long as we don't fight what's next Unh, they told me Die Another Day But that was one side of my I'm trying grow up out of that phase So now I'm flying alone Solo floating for my eyes on home, I still love y'all though Believe me, I know you love me, but once again, I can't apologize for it I used to look in the mirror and want the other side Where the demon lived - that's how my brother died This for the days and walks How many graves I cross And all them takeaways but see them times is still lost To a nigga like me and I'm trying to find my purpose I'm trying to see if this music shit and this rap game is it worth it And these niggas hate you on purpose & that shit don't change though So I put that shit in my backpack Told a nigga step back for that thang blow And I'm chain ganging, niggas wanna bring back gang banging, cane slanging Never been the nigga who done had cheese or them fresh jeans with that chain dangling Been maintaining - nah nigga please Go chill with that For I take 4 pills with that and that pink cat say peel his cap like damn And take a second be yourself nigga Fuck it man, I been out here getting it for the wealth nigga And in a circle say it all come Back around my dream I'm trying to find it 'fore I leave and like And now, I'm not my own worst enemy In fact, it's a whole new energy And now I love me