Today's the anniversary of the day that you should've been born
Nobody ever taught me the empty half that you can't afford
Standing by the ocean, I am wadding with your ashes scattering
I'm throwing salt into the sea
The burden of your death is a boulder on my chest
A blanket keeping me
Just warm enough to sting, but I'm still suffering
Emptiness is all I can feel (emptiness is all I can feel)
There's nothing in this world that feels real
I cannot stop obsessing, but-
I'm still fixated on what I have lost
How will I ever learn to heal?
The birds still sing in the cemetery
The flowers still bloom
How do I bury someone that I never even got to know?
And I will still coat myself in the salt and burning scent
To preserve this chance of fleeting innocence
'Cause I just want my mental health to be my greatest wealth
I don't ever wanna be this low again
Emptiness is all I can feel (emptiness is all I can feel)
There's nothing in this world that feels real
I cannot stop obsessing, but-
I'm still fixated on what I have lost
How will I ever learn to heal?
I try so hard to not be aware
That everyone I love can disappear
I hear footsteps in the night
I swear I see your face (your face)
I clutch the clothes that we bought for you
That you'll never wear
Emptiness is all I can feel
There's nothing in this world that feels real
I cannot stop obsessing but
I'm still fixated on what I have lost
How will I ever learn to heal?
Emptiness is all I can feel (emptiness is all I can feel)
There's nothing in this world that feels real
I cannot stop obsessing, but-
I'm still fixated on what I have lost
How will I ever learn to heal?
