Answering Machine

Back against the wall, my vision is off focus Afraid of all my thoughts so I sleep with my eyes open The omen is ominous As my eyes, begin to roll into to the back of my head A part of me was so at peace with how my story would end I never learned cause even after that I'm leaning again A side I vowed to never never show to my friends But now I know addiction And it's taken over What I could I possibly do when I know I hate being sober And so hold to it closer While holding on to all the will I have left Often ponder if this drink is where my time will be set They'll come a time where everybody has to meet the same fate And deep inside I know it's gonna call me from my grace, when I fall from it I can't be apart from it I vomit my pride, I'm getting close but I'm far from it And chained to my time The heaven's lights are blinding my eyes Cause I heard that your life flashes when it's passing you by Is there anything that I could do To get even closer to you What can I do to show how much I can not choose from love and us But the rain will fall again And pain will call again Its reigning over me, over me But then again It peaks then it's gone again It reigning over me, over me Now and then you miss it But it makes you cry I could the difference by the tears in your eyes What can I do to know you better What can I do to show how much I'm holding on to my worth Cause I know these decisions don't end well It's hard to tread lightly when walking on eggshells Exhaling all my problems I'm hoping the ship's sailed Cause it's hard to feel shit when you living off pain pills I'm so out of touch and out of reach That in my sleep I thought I met the woman of my dreams And my eyes were closed ever since My train of thought has boarded my sins Because in truth I know that, that's the only place you exist And so a wingless angel came to set my soul free Blood in my mouth as I'm clinching my teeth Sleep walking on to the terrace with a gun in my fleece Please save me cause all this running's got me weak in the knees I hide behind the cards up my sleeve How could I see, free falling from the line like I'm Micheal in 93' 23 small things I forgot in another dream that's now vivid But somehow I could always tell the difference From the ghosts that I see are alive but not living