(What you want)
(So damn ashamed)
You know
I keep looking at everything I've ever done in my life
And I don't really regret all of it, but
Sometimes I just wish that I didn't have to go through that type of shit
To be who I am, right now
Today
Like, I'm only twenty-three
But this shit gonna get better eventually
I hope
You should be so damn ashamed
Look at the mess that you made
You keep on looking away
Knowing it's not gonna change
You should be so damn ashamed
Look at the mess that you made
You keep on looking away
Knowing it's not gonna change
I look at myself, and I know I'm supposed to be further in life
I keep looking at everyone else, and what they've achieved
And it's hurtin' my pride
Keep letting my past determine my now
And my state of mind
I should be proud of myself
Looking at everything that I survived
Negativity in all of my thoughts
So afraid that I'll always be lost
And no matter what I do, I will never make it far
That's what happens when you live life scarred
So afraid that I'll never leave the dark
Livin' in the past, always thinkin' 'bout tomorrow
Fucking up a lot man, it's always my fault
And everybody always wanna pick at my flaws
Wanna talk about the way that I look?
There's a saying "You don't judge no book
By a cover", but shoulda' saw gut
I ain't trippin', I ain't here to please y'all
Stepped on, and stomped on, wipe your feet off
Heart's got a defect, I need a recall
Heart's got a defect, I need a recall
You should be so damn ashamed
Look at the mess that you made
You keep on looking away
Knowing it's not gonna change
You should be so damn ashamed
Look at the mess that you made
You keep on looking away
