If Only

I wish I still got better sleep without another next to me, I'm lonely If only I knew how you feel, my legs could stop their shaking My heart could stop its breaking, if only If I could cut this tangled cord, I know things would be better But I think I could never You won't leave In a dream, are you calling out to me Or am I just saying things I wanna hear when I'm asleep? Could it be? Should I read, develop vocabulary? But the concept that I must express is nothing new to me I would rewind and fix it all, but if I had the chance to I'd probably still hurt you, and you me If only you could see my light You'd come back home tomorrow night and hold me But I know that just can't be right You build me up on Sunday I'm down again by Monday, if only