In My Mind

Hold up, wait a minute now Why you got me looking crazy when you know I ain't your baby? Like Hold up, wait a minute now How you got me looking psycho when your love for me was micro? Like Hold up, wait a second now How you all up in my business but still out of range for kisses? Like Hold up, wait a second now I don't know what to say to you cuz you always switch the mood One sec, you're happy, the next one, you're pissed Claim you're a Saint with that cross on your wrist Love is so loco, you won't get the gist You don't want no drama, but look at that list, like How the hell would I know I ain't ready for this shit? How am I supposed to know the pain up in this biz? I tried it out once, but it just wasn't right So, I tried it again, and now I'm ruined for life Love pulled us together just to rip us apart My heart is now cold, my blood boiling hot In my mind I'm dreaming, cuz this isnt fair But now I can tell that I'm in a nightmare When my heads gone, thoughts long, damn I lost my crown When you're right, I'm wrong, my smiles upside down In my mind I'm thinking, you will always be there But now I know I'm thinking of a nightmare, like I don't even know if we should've went on forever Knuckles up then somehow we are back together? Had y'all screaming tryna hide it from our mothers Now I sit here as the only one that's a sucker Mother mmmmm I'm pathetic I would say it but the old you just wouldn't have it Now you're nearsighted with the men you've invited You're so off track, like you really miss your pilot Too busy to notice, too focused to care Couldn't get you out, so I chopped off my hair Had to send myself to maintenance and repair Now y'all coming back and be wanting a share? It really do be crazy when you look at all the facts I had to fight with you for days so I could relax Got to pull myself together like when Thanos left Drax While you sit here crying for some more trains on your tracks Love pulled us together just to rip us apart My heart is now cold, my blood boiling hot In my mind I'm dreaming, cuz this isnt fair But now I can tell that I'm in a nightmare When my heads gone, thoughts long, damn I lost my crown When you're right, I'm wrong, my smiles upside down In my mind I'm thinking, you will always be there But now I know I'm thinking of a nightmare, like Cut me some slack dude, I really wanna break Imagine how tired I am for God's sake Y'all really do be switching like the votes for a state Or maybe I should say it like you're flipping a steak Damn, I thought I grew up but you bring me back to younger me Sitting, staring back up at the bar that hung right over me Out to foreign countries drinking things to cure anxiety But what does that help when I get back to New York City? Tell me, cuz I'm always here with open ears Help me, cuz I'm out here stopping for my fears How do I not cry though I blocked you on insta? How do I not swerve when I think of your picture? Tell me, cuz I'm always here with open ears Help me, cuz I'm out here stopping for my fears I can't ever grow cuz I'm stuck in the rewind How I got the most dreams but I'm always left behind?