Stairway To Heaven

Way up- way up high Way up- way up high Way up- way up high Way up- way up high I was estranged from you Feel like a stranger to you I let you go- felt like a danger to you My life in shambles- I could ramble for hours Addiction had me devoured Put on a face to not come off as a coward I Ran from my problems Took some years to combat my demons Sat inside my head so long- I can still hear them screaming I finally felt release when I got the courage to speak In front of people that resembled my pain I did so much just to change Only reflecting on my past so I could learn from mistakes Your father showed me who he was- and so we went separate ways I'm sorry that it took so long to tell you this But you deserve the truth I held my mothers hand when she entered the upper room And I fear that I'm due there soon Laying in this bed- they got me breathing through a tube I'm sending you this message in hopes that it gets to you Just text me when you get it, I love you, talk to you soon The stairway to heaven Way up- way up high Way up- way up high The stairway to heaven Stairway to heaven Way up- way up high Way up- way up high Stairway I've had mixed feelings since I was seven I lived with you- not knowing from you was where I was severed Suffered in silence when thinking about my origin story A bastard child that was passed around from New York to Georgia I made some friends and made choices that I regretted Bettered myself and stayed away from those that would behead me Or so I thought I've been trying to tackle this loss Came away from a friendship and went to bury my aunt I went to bury my mother and now I'm holding my heart in my hands Got back to Topawa knowing that I won't see you again Felt like a shell when I'm asked- How are you doing What do I say? Do I lie to drive them away Drove a wedge in-between us- for years didn't see your face Driven towards affection- was driving myself insane So I made myself a promise- I swore I would never break That my son won't know the same pain- until I hit the stairway The stairway to heaven Way up- way up high Way up- way up high Stairway to heaven Stairway to heaven Way up- way up high Way up- way up high Stairway My way Way up- way up high Way up- way up high Stairway My way Way up- way up high Way up- way up high Stairway