Alone

L O N L O N And it never gets easy L O N Wake up alone Hit the gym up alone When I head into work 'imma leave the truck on my own Sticking with meditation so I won't be so evasive Trying to find my happy place but don't think that I'll make it It's not a destination- it's something that's created Molded in your mind along the journey that you're taking If you stop moving forward you'll never see it completed An overflow of confidence beaten back and then receding I'm over thinking I'm running from track to track barely breathing Shooting for the stars but I'm cut on the glass ceiling I'm feeling stuck I'm feeling like giving up I'm looking for help in every direction But no one will show affection Maybe they don't get it Who even has the time to care I'm putting in the effort to get myself out there But I'm filled with too much honesty And honestly- I'm sick of it Putting eggs in all these different baskets- man I've had it All I do is match my energy If it ain't genuine then stay the fuck away from me I show them love and motherfuckers acting weird to me I'm backing off until further notice Get burnt if you get too close- ain't no way 'imma lose this focus I gotta get it Scratch the record and spin it Until it end up in the book of Guinness With the winners If I gotta do this shit by myself- then so be it I create an entire mantra for self and then repeat it It goes Always away, I never stay L Leave me alone in disarray O If only you knew- shit I've been through left me- overexerted, overwhelmed, and overused N Never give up- never give in- never- betray yourself- the strength comes from within Don't envy the dark- empty your soul- If you- lose your light then you'll- never glow It goes L O N L O N And it never gets easier for me L O N L O N L O N And it never gets easier for me L O N And it never gets easy And it never gets easy