Fear is not of God

What was it?, May 1st 2022 I flew to Atlanta, About to graduate from school I just finished fasting, 30 days without no food Praying to Allah, My spine would heal and I'd be cool I'm just gone record these songs at Loud house I cut that one bitch off because she had a loud mouth I got a hotel but Jay said "come stay my house" "I gotta go turn myself in but Ima bond out" I swear I thought that everything was straight Everything was coo, until I started hearing voices And I didn't know what to do, trying to get me to provoke a nigga But I'm not no fool, they like "what you really scared of?" "What you think he gone do?" Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God They keep on saying Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Ok this second part gone really sound crazy Because for some reason I'm calling thug baby And in my mind I know I'm really not his lady Somehow I'm thinking what provoked this is who raped me And I'm so layed back I brushed it off Should I be the one to speak up or not I'm kinda lost, I don't want to play the victim, So I'll take it as a loss, Man I hate to feel defeated Now I feel like it's my fault How the trauma would effect me later I really wasn't knowing, Now it's weird to bring it up But the red flags really showing, Guess I'm working through my healing This is all apart of growing, God gone deal with all them later You just got to keep on going Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God They keep on saying Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God Fear is not of God They keep on saying