In Between

Not feeling too good, not feeling too bad I'm somewhere in between Can't tell if I'm happy or if I'm sad I just feel like me When everyone says that their life's going great Don't know how to say that I just can't feel it 'Cause I can't describe the emotions I actually have A couple parts bitter, another part sweet But they don't cancel out Some days I'm so eager to get off my feet Some days I laze around I'm so inconsistent, don't know what it means The internet says there's a problem with me Am I trying too much? Or am I not trying enough? I'm so caught up in my head Tell me how am I to make some sense When I see no difference Do I love or do I hate myself to death? Everyone seems to be happier And it's just making me nervous I thought I was fine But maybe I'm blind to all of my hurting 'Cause no one understands when I tell them what I'm feeling Sometimes I get sad for no particular reason Maybe I should take some time to start reflecting on myself But it's hard to find the time to When I'm always overwhelmed I could eat well, I could work out I could keep friends that I care about But I can't keep it all in balance I've got too many distractions I'm so caught up in my head Tell me how am I to make some sense When I see no difference Do I love or do I hate myself to death? My indecisiveness Can't decide What's best between changing who I am Or complacence I'm so caught up in my head Tell me how am I to make some sense When I see no difference Do I love or do I hate myself to death?