A Spark

A spark What is a spark? How many times will that kind of a feeling Come shimmering past– The kind I regard with such conviction That it could shift my whole path? Trace my trajectory into the dark Place blind trust into healed scars They come, they go Like the waves in deep space flow Sometimes the nights I fear most Are lying there knowing a spark went cold Pushed away love to a place unknown Bartered and sold all of my own No foresight to guide me, no heart to make whole Safe in your embrace Still getting ahead of myself Don't let me get swept away By all of the dreams, the lights, the plans that I make Stars cross and meet for a moment Fleeting points of symmetry Everything I need could be right here Slow the seasons and let me off 'Cause I couldn't stop the clock Stars cross and meet for a moment Fleeting points of symmetry No time to say goodbye Before we find we've lost each other To the turning of the years Everything I need could be right here Slow the seasons and let me off Trust me to walk away And I'll rue the day forever 'Cause I couldn't stop the clock I wanna wake up to the sun in my window Taste the cold, bitter winter's rain I wanna keep learning the things that move me I wanna feel pleasure, I wanna feel pain I wanna be feminine and be masculine And be motivated and calm I wanna build up an identity Around how I feel in your arms But if I'm chasing butterflies, then uncertainty is the choice These rites of passage that I seek get lost to all of this noise Don't let me lose sight of the fact that I'm never stopping this clock If a spark's enough to restructure me, then imagine all that it costs Stars cross and meet for a moment Fleeting points of symmetry No time to say goodbye Before we find we've lost each other To the turning of the years Everything I need could be right here Slow the seasons and let me off Trust me to walk away And I'll rue the day forever 'Cause I couldn't stop the clock I couldn't stop the clock If I had the hindsight to know I made the right move Maybe I would be gentler and less cruel I wanna look back in ten years And feel, sincerely, that this was a risk worth taking And I have nothing else left to prove I wish I could make promises and speak certainties and be true But truth be told, I'm terrified that this path could take me from you With tunnel vision I'll sacrifice my heart To find the power that comes with fear just like the light in a spark