Upside Down

If I look too close, I fear for what I'll find There's something wrong with the picture And I think I've known for a while Perfect families of stone politely crumbling in wax-cast homes It's sickening to watch as beauty goes awry Am I entranced or am I horrified? "This life, " you said "It's easy upside down" "The truth is rarely quite as sweet unless you lie to yourself Don't open your eyes until you've hit the bottom" All I wanted was to trust myself Never altered by opposing forces In a dream I never needed any help But defiance hurt me more than any fortune If I look too close, more fractures reveal themselves And when I place my hands to the glass I begin to wear them as well When a flaw turns into a fault turns into a lie I feel the lonely people turn to me and bare their true smiles (Now something wrong feels right, oh) All I wanted was to trust myself Never altered by opposing forces In a dream I never needed any help But defiance hurt me more than any fortune Close the door No longer recognise the place I knew To see is powerful, to look away is more The defiance hurt me more than any fortune This life I found I'll live it upside down This life I found I'll live it upside down To suffer in silence feels nice at the bottom