Nosedive

It's just been one of those days Where I can't see the point anymore Yeah, it's just been one of those days feeling anxious Reaching out, but ignored (but ignored) If only I could know how to come clean and let this go Instead of keeping habits I can't refrain from Well, maybe that's just me seeing so indifferently There'll be no rhyme or reason Or a shoulder to lean on It's no secret, 'cause I can see that I'm still busy being pissed at my reflection What's said and done from myself I can't out run I'm hanging on to this, and the pain held in my head With a life lesson I've learned of "don't let anybody in" Putting on another charade won't make it all go away You want honesty? But acting sorry for myself is comforting I'm searching for something that could kill me quick Give me the antidote for the mess I'm in No guidance, I'm lifeless, and so headstrong Help me find the difference in right and wrong And I know I'll just end up standing in smoke So I'll choke and invoke my former self as a ghost And I know I'll just end up standing in smoke With the words that I wrote but never spoke I'm hanging on to this, and the pain held in my head With a life lesson I've learned of "don't let anybody in" Putting on another charade won't make it all go away You want honesty? But acting sorry for myself is comforting Strapped in for the long hall I'd best learn how to enjoy the downfall Is there a reason to fight? I'll wilt away with no end in sight I've been here before but I don't recognize it anymore They say pain makes you stronger I'm weaker than ever Will it ever end? A feeling I discarded, since the moment all this started I'll never fit into the shape you made Would anyone just take my place? Restless and hopeless, spend every given day To waste it all away, I'm wasted away I'm wasted away I'm hanging on to this, and the pain held in my head With a life lesson I've learned of "don't let anybody in" Putting on another charade won't make it all go away You want honesty? But acting sorry for myself is comforting