Breakneck Pace

I'd throw it all away and leave it all behind I won't pick myself up off the streets that shaped me Where I grew up way too fast at breakneck pace And I lost my shot at this Took aim, I fired and missed That sense of failure I felt Cause I always do this to myself I can't take back all what I said and I did I can't stop holding out for a dance with death It's self destructive, hung up on yesterday I'm losing everything, I'm losing everything So why am I fucking trying? There's not an ounce of good left in me I let down every friend I had like family Just like I always do I'll think back to what I was told "What you seek can't be held in your hands, bought or sold" And If I go, what would be those shallow words you'll say to me? Goodbye, or rest in peace? Pretend to care, pretend to weep Pretend you knew a thing about me And my mind's eyes closed shut with doubt Cause I always do this to myself I can't take back all what I said and I did Can't stop holding out for a dance with death It's self destructive, hung up on yesterday I'm losing everything, I'm losing everything And I'll wonder what it's like to be wanted Just the false hope to hold me in place And every night where I end up thinking It's all too much, is this my life to take? And now it's all so clear I want to be embraced by the void that I fear Staring in, there's a sound that I'll take to my grave A permanent solution that's been calling my name I can't take back all what I said and I did Can't stop holding out for a dance with death It's self destructive, i'm hung up on yesterday I'm losing everything, I've lost everything