Erroneous Euphoria

Desolate and lost Unsalvageable I'm unable to see clearly Acceptance of this flesh and blood Yet I still remain shattered by amalgamation I welcome self contempt Inside the mind Negative thoughts construct a poisoned mass Hopelessness The theme of my continued existence Here lie tribulations "Everything is fine" Burdensome How long to entertain this illusion Wandering through the streets I feel the weight at my feet Swelling with every step taken Yearning for the time to fall asleep Healing dreams unveiled With feelings of limerence My soul is finally at peace Entrancement lasts only a moment, but parallels eternity Return to the waking world Erroneous Euphoria the only real thing here Compulsion to withdraw back to the delusion Erroneous Euphoria the only real thing here lost Unsalvageable I'm unable to see clearly Acceptance of this flesh and blood Yet I still remain shattered by amalgamation Possessing the knowledge and physicality Rendered useless by immoderation In the meantime, I will continue on Searching for a satisfaction in this reality Assurance severs and then snaps The constant struggle to hammer away Inadequacies and defiencies When the truth is I am, I am a sloth Self-possessed in this sensation of virulence Still yearning to fall asleep Inside the confines of my own mind lies my dreamscape I am divine and I will loom to lionize Return to the waking world Erroneous Euphoria the only real thing here Compulsion to withdraw back to the delusion Erroneous Euphoria the only real thing here lost