Out of Spite, I Thrive

Deterioration of my cranium and internal organs have been splayed Here we go! Bring it on Agitated reactions from all surrounding me From most nights I don't even recall I scoff at the thought You are the one who's overreacting Everything I say and do, it's in all good fun So why don't you shut the fuck up and take it with a grain of salt Intervention Banishment Denounced for shenanigans Tarred and feathered Mirror reflects, face turns scarlet from embarrassment of my actions Temporary solution where therin lies the problem This is all I know, habits enforced Resistant to change The time has come to make an alteration Out of Spite, I Thrive Conquer infinity Silence the temptations Obey the ritual Persevere no matter what Anxiety coursing through my veins in place of The alcohol that once occupied the space Enough contemplation, pull the trigger Decision to endure to the other side Nephalism reveals I live two different lives One succumbs to desires, the other seeks enlightenment Never before have I felt this vulnerable or Determined to prove the naysayers wrong But it's not for me, it's all for you No longer will you think of me as a buffoon I'm dead set on making all feel inadequate Chronology of my being Words mean nothing, all action from here A man is nothing more than what he purposes I will follow through to the end of perpetration The question will be answered, are you worth it? Adherence Obsession Praised now for my vigilance Restored decency Mirror reflects, face is glowing from consistency of my actions Temporary solution where therin lies the problem Explore the unknown, habits reinforced Willingness to change