Burden

Chasing after maybes For my whole life Was never scary Until the day I came across something That was certain For the first time I was shown what my future would be And it was awful There was no escape Except for this one way That was mentioned And it offered Ever-quiet At a terrible price Just one whole life And you'll be on your way You know if you stay You will be such a burden Spare them all that needless hurting If you choose to stay You'll drag all your friends Around in the mud You should get ovеr Yourself and give up Fate has been clеar I don't think I will I think I'll keep going Though I'm not convinced That things will be good for me I'm no longer sure That they will be so bad And if that stays a maybe Then I'll stick around What a horrid liar It turned out to be That said that my future Would just be a waste Thought it was my fate I thought I'll trust this Then I saw, oh wow you're lying I will be fine and I was right For the rest of my days I'll be on guard for That one demon's voice And sometimes even now It sounds pretty real And when people smile I just can't relate I know if I wait A little longer I can win against The thing that did this Why Why Why I used to ask Now it's that same question Asking why did I make it out And what am I to do with My new second chance at life Write songs about the Sunrise that destroys eternal night Different from those Who left for the quiet They were all soldiers Who chose ever silence And they have my respect Surely I understand Now something's changed The wind or the current There from the ground As if out of nowhere A thought that was sleeping Rose out of the sea Guided my past self And now walks with me If you choose to stay You'll drag all your friends Around in the mud You should get over Yourself and give up Fate has been clear Those terrible words I said to myself So how could I ever Expect to do well When the cruelest And the meanest And the foulest disease Gets to use My own voice To say that to me