From the Heart

This for them nights that I was thuggin on my own This for them nights that I had henny and patron This for all them nights that I was crying writing songs This for my soldiers who was with me through the storm And all I needed was my family They the only ones who understand me Right there by my side when I woke up from surgery They seen my lies when I told them I'm not hurting They can take this pain away, especially on these rainy days Granny praying by my bed, voices in my head I keep tryna forget about him, tryna forgive But everything I'm hearing, saying shoot him in the head Track him down, walk him down, make him feel the shit I did I feel many men Many men want me dead And I'm paranoid I'm paranoid, I'm not scared If you look at me Look at me in my eyes You will see the pain See the pain that I hide I got murder on my mind, pray that God heal my soul I will never cross that line, I won't go down that road If that's the life he living, then he won't be living long I just hate having these thoughts, so I put them in my songs This for them nights that I was thuggin on my own This for them nights that I had henny and patron This for all them nights that I was crying writing songs This for my soldiers who was with me through the storm I hated seeing all them tears in my parents' eyes Seeing all my family cry Hate seeing these fucking flashbacks every single night I don't want revenge, cus two wrongs, it don't make it right Confessing all my sins to my God, pray he save my life Do you know how strong you gotta be To forgive someone who try to take you from your family I don't know what I'm seeing, feel like I'm stuck inside a dream I'm ignoring these feelings, of spilling blood in the street And when they ask me why I didn't spin I just tell them I got God in my life fuck nigga What the fuck, I look like takin a life Pops raised me right, I had to just be patient give it time I know I'll be alright I was locked up in my room with the alcohol beside me Fighting off depression and the anger that's inside me Pops tellin me to chill, I been drinking too much Had to take a step back and realize who I was This for them nights that I was thuggin on my own This for them nights that I had Henny and Patron This for all them nights that I was crying writing songs This for my soldiers who was with me through the storm And to the people who was with me in my life when I was at my lowest The people who was checkin up on me, calling me, making sure i'm good Coming to the crib putting a smile on my face just know I appreciate you and I love you forever Y'all helped me more than you think you did And I just appreciate the ones who kept a smile on my face through that dark time Yessir