Lyrics
This for them nights that I was thuggin on my own
This for them nights that I had henny and patron
This for all them nights that I was crying writing songs
This for my soldiers who was with me through the storm
And all I needed was my family
They the only ones who understand me
Right there by my side when I woke up from surgery
They seen my lies when I told them I'm not hurting
They can take this pain away, especially on these rainy days
Granny praying by my bed, voices in my head
I keep tryna forget about him, tryna forgive
But everything I'm hearing, saying shoot him in the head
Track him down, walk him down, make him feel the shit I did
I feel many men
Many men want me dead
And I'm paranoid
I'm paranoid, I'm not scared
If you look at me
Look at me in my eyes
You will see the pain
See the pain that I hide
I got murder on my mind, pray that God heal my soul
I will never cross that line, I won't go down that road
If that's the life he living, then he won't be living long
I just hate having these thoughts, so I put them in my songs
This for them nights that I was thuggin on my own
This for them nights that I had henny and patron
This for all them nights that I was crying writing songs
This for my soldiers who was with me through the storm
I hated seeing all them tears in my parents' eyes
Seeing all my family cry
Hate seeing these fucking flashbacks every single night
I don't want revenge, cus two wrongs, it don't make it right
Confessing all my sins to my God, pray he save my life
Do you know how strong you gotta be
To forgive someone who try to take you from your family
I don't know what I'm seeing, feel like I'm stuck inside a dream
I'm ignoring these feelings, of spilling blood in the street
And when they ask me why I didn't spin
I just tell them I got God in my life fuck nigga
What the fuck, I look like takin a life
Pops raised me right, I had to just be patient give it time
I know I'll be alright
I was locked up in my room with the alcohol beside me
Fighting off depression and the anger that's inside me
Pops tellin me to chill, I been drinking too much
Had to take a step back and realize who I was
This for them nights that I was thuggin on my own
This for them nights that I had Henny and Patron
This for all them nights that I was crying writing songs
This for my soldiers who was with me through the storm
And to the people who was with me in my life when I was at my lowest
The people who was checkin up on me, calling me, making sure i'm good
Coming to the crib putting a smile on my face just know I appreciate you and I love you forever
Y'all helped me more than you think you did
And I just appreciate the ones who kept a smile on my face through that dark time
Yessir
Writer(s): Isaiah Horne
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